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Saturday, April 28, 2007
I give up instantly. Im so hurt that when i tried to laugh i cried instead. I know it's too late to regret. I decided to be cruel and i think it's time for me to think about my own feelings. I 've been too good and patience to people around me. But what do i get in return. Just some ignorance and your past that you never want to move on. I feel useless. I feel like im nothing to you. And whatever you do is enough to make me hurt. It feels like a knife thrusting right in my heart. I felt this once before and once bitten twice shy dear. If you feel hurt of losing someone you love. Then you should learn to redha and be glad that you still have other people who love you and that include me. The way you say is more like a person who does not have faith in Allah. I felt dissapointed in you. I really do. I don't know you anymore. I don't understand why you can't stand up for yourself and just let things become worsen. You've the wrong way of handling problem dear. If you think im being selfish and I don't think about your feelings, then you got all wrong about me. That shows that you know little about me or maybe you know but you just pretend not knowing it. Because what? You are ego. E-G-O and obdurate. You never want to try and you said you cant. I give up on you. Whatever my words seems nothing to you and it just went in to your right ear and instantly out from your left ear. My words were uttered in the air. It's good-for-nothing. So you know what, I shall let you choose and lead the way of life you want. Because what? Im nothing to you. Im just a stupid passer-by who came into your life and added burden to your oh so wonderful past. I'm tired. seriously. I do. It's been hard for me knowing people all this while and i got shits from them. But no. Im not blaming god for as far as i know, everything that happened has the reasons behind it and he choose me to face all this and let me discover all kind of human being in this world. I learnt to be more patience and prayers keep me strong although now im in breakdown moment. I just need time. I've no mood for jokes, talks, yummy food or anything. I just need a shoulder to cry on and ensure me that what i did was the right thing and i need a good laugh. No way. It cant be my familly members. I don't wish to tell them. :( Let's put in the a way that i've never tried knowing you.  |
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