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Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Un-thinkable "Everyone thinks his/her own burden the heaviest." I was trusting my instinct these few days and i didn't know whether i should be happy about it. I felt relief but the same time i regret. I think this the right time to stand on my feet and InsyaAllah may hope be the last thing i lose. But then again there were too many times i was against my own instinct. I regretted making those decisions but i somehow get over it in months/years to come. I've kind of used to the fact that i will always end up feeling despair. So i shall take it that whatever i'm going through today is just something that i learn to grow up and become wiser. I guess to forget a wrong is the best revenge. Human often fail to realize their mistakes. Sometimes we even point our finger to others and afraid to admit our mistakes. I agree. I might be one of them. I was taking a nap in the afternoon few days ago, and i dreamt about Tok Bak. He told me that it won't hurt so much if the mistake doesn't cost a cent. The only thing that i can do is to really learn from the mistake i made. And i don't know why when i woke up, i felt lost. I miss you Tok Bak. I miss your kind words. I might have missed you in my dua' but the truth is i really miss you and Mak Tok. I'm sure if you're here today, kakak and i will be more motivated than we are today. Maybe when you were around, i was too young to acknowledge your kind words. But as i grow older, and get reminded of what you said, i just wish you're here. Especially when you keep telling me 'Kawan biar ramai, sahabat sejati biar satu'. And now i understand what you meant by it. Maybe tiada istilah sahabat sejati in this world. I was just too kind to people that i often ended up getting hurt. That's Jalilah for you. Oh simple thing where have you gone |
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