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Monday, May 03, 2010
I need some Closure I know. This post probably won't be necessary anymore since i haven't been active in blogging. My commitment have changed as of first Jan 2010. The reason for this post is simply because i couldn't find anywhere to rant the usual uncertainties and my usual worries. Though i felt that certain things are better kept in my heart. I try to understand the people around me, the situation i'm at and my worries that kept me having sleepless night. However, the more i tried, the more confuse i get. I guess it was right. There's certain things are better left unsaid and unquestioned. I don't want to break the law of nature. So i somehow felt that i should just let it go. Allah knows best. Not many people know about me. I might tend to look the usual. But there were a lot of things running in my head. I might be smiling but my heart is breaking. I tend to use the word 'hate' often but i never mean it. Its natural for a person to feel lost and ended up having lonely hearts. Howbeit i believe that Allah have store something good for me and that he is just testing me. Testing my patience, my self-motivation and my constant doa. I don't want to lose hope. I want to keep going and just keep going. I'm so embarrass with Allah. I haven't been reciting Quran and when i know the peace that i want is just right in front my eyes. Forgive me Ya Allah. :(( Tuhanku ampunkanlah segala dosaku |
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