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Thursday, April 17, 2008
Everyday is a Struggle I couldn't wait to get home from work. It's the last day of work for the week! *wink-wink* Work have been fun with great people around. I get to makes friends with 4 other interns and permanents . They are bunch of sweet people. We felt like family. Thanks to those warm welcome. And i felt so lucky that Leia is working with me! yey! Monday night was the day i will never forget aside from getting all over excited with the GST offset and growth dividends from the government. There's a saying that says "For every happiness, there's always sadness" I had a little conversation that could reveals hidden secrets that i've been wanting to know eversince. It drives me crazy. I beg to know. However, when i found out, i couldn't hide my feelings. I couldn't hide those tears that meant for you. I hope it's all lies.. I hope it was not you. I hope it was a dream. I couldn't help it, but to keep on thinking about it everyday even now when im typing this away, tears starts rolling down my cheeks.. I was really taken aback. I was dissapointed at first. But when these days of tears.. crying for you, i knew you had your reasons to remain silent and nothing won't change even abit of how i felt for you. Trust me. I love you and u means alot to me. Im sorry. I can't help it but to think about you everytime. If it hurts you badly, it hurts me too. I know, im trying to put myself in your shoes. I bet it has been an emotional roller coaster ride for you all this while. I was imagining my myself standing infront of you. I wonder if i even could lift my head up and look at you. Im afraid that i will cry and breakdown instantly. You wouldn't know it. I promised to Allah, that since it was meant to be a secret. Then let it be a secret between me, you, them & Allah. Trust me. There was never a day, i stop praying and thinking about you. Cause all i ever know, you're my angel. I love you so. Being in love and care for people close to you, on the other hand, is like getting your hands on chocolates, savoring its sweet-melting taste. Some chocolates will leave a strong aftertaste that requires a mouth wash. The sensuous scent only appeals to your sense of smell, and nothing more. However, there will be some that make you desire for more, wishing for just another amazing experience. I'm not good at neither words nor lying. As a forgetful human-being, there may come a time when we forget about having faith, I hope we will be reminded by god always. Insyallah.  |
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